Hmm...
Well, I got my essay done. Sat, at 7.54am, in the computer room to print it out, to find that this is impossible due to a printer error. This doesn't worry me, it's done this before. I'll head to the library at 8.30 when it opens. I'm doing a laudry as we speak so I'm going to have to check on that first of all.
I'll get back to you later, I do promise. It's too early in the morning and I think I missed my alarm.
Right, so I'm fucked then?
Well, I find out after my psychology lecture that the essay due in 9am tomorrow is actually due in 9am today. Thankfully, due to uni rules, I get 24 hours leeway. Which does in fact mean it's due in 9am tomorrow- but I don't have any safety net after that.
Add to this the fact that I've written 18 words of 1500 thus far, and that I've lost the signed essay plan I need to hand in with the essay in order to pass, and things are going pretty great. I think that, unless I find that plan I'm a certified failure - 85% sure. We'll see. I'm going to do the essay anyway, just for kicks. If I fail, I fail. I really don't actually care if I pass or not. I wouldn't mind failing - Quitting makes it my fault, failing puts it down to the marker. Knowing my luck it'll be the best essay of my career and I'll get A+ and a Nobel prize.
Thankfully, I bought Genesis'
Duke and
Genesis LPs from Oxfam to listen to. I'd be happy to never see a CD ever again.
Well, back to it I suppose. It's the first time I've started an essay before 6pm, so I might actually have it finished by 4am this time. Fingers crossed, eh?
Alls I'm saying...
It's only Tuesday. I feel like I've been here forever.
The irony is, it started off quite nicely
Today was alright.
Got up early, as befits a weekday and the start of the university term. Met Elliott and Jenny at 9 for last minute revision and catch up before the 10am Psych multiple choice "exam". I was the first to finish... 2nd to walk out of the room. 15 minutes for an hour long exam. Multiple fucking choice, what's the point?
After that farce, went into town with Elliott, with the expressed purpose of procuring the final book in my English reading list (Kazuo Ishiguro's
The Remains of the Day, as well as all three formats of The Raconteurs' new single,
Steady, As She Goes. I did both of these, as well as picking up Nick Hornby's
High Fidelity and the new Arctic Monkeys EP. Which was nice. Started to go home when I figured that, instead of just collecting, it would make more sense to listen to the vinyl recordings of my new favourite band's single. So I went to Argos and parted with £50 for a turntable. And that was that. A quick food shop and a pop into the Tattoo place (I was going to get my M+ done, but I couldn't find the design I'd purposefully placed in my top pocket, so I'm going to have to go in on Wednesday or Thursday to get it done.
Got back, things went well. Played the single about 50 times, in its various guises, along with the fantastic B Sides (actual B sides! Genius). I love my turntable.
Things went further and further downhill. Got a text from Lisa - a t-shirt order for the WIN society at uni, which is fucking amazing; I'm looking into printers tomorrow. I walked into town, and walked myself into a downer, which was unexpected.
I don't want to be here. Worcester, perhaps, I've signed a contract for a house and all that, but not uni. I came here with the purpose of figuring out what I want to do with my life. I found that. I want to own the Green Apples company, I want to make my mark on planet earth, not spend my life doing as my family wants and "getting a good job" or a fucking degree that's going to be even more worthless in 2 years' time than it is nowadays. So. I've done what I came for. What's the point in being here now? I've worked up a good £5000 or so of debt, wouldn't it be prudent for me to just cut my losses and try to recoup that debt?
I quit the FOruM also. I can't be arsed with everyone being so happy. I'm going to get rid of my MySpaz account as well, but not now. Now, I'm going to lie on my bed, in the dark, and listen to my beautiful music and go to sleep.
