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Fuck off

I cannot pay my share of the phone bill. Which is very annoying indeed. I have everyone else’s share in my account, even Judith’s mammoth portion. But I cannot do mine. I’m not sure what this means. As I recall, they usually like to send you a couple of red letters before they cut you off, is this right? I dunno.

Felt like shit yesterday after work. Drank some wine, which always goes straight to my head (back in the Co-Op days myself and Rhian used to get shitfaced at lunch on two large glasses each. Note to self: Need to contact Rhian, it’s been too long) which made me well depressed. Just had this overwhelming feeling that no one gave a shit, which was exacerbated by my inability to tell people – no one really understands what I mean and end up getting offended because they do care. I know there are people who care if I live or die. It’s just that sometimes everything ploughs on top of me and it feels like I’m alone in a world full of people who have never felt this way and could never understand.

And I know this is bullshit. But there’s nothing particularly rational about my feelings on a downer. So that’s that I guess, and I can’t be arsed going into things again. Needless to say the comic remains undone. After tomorrow I will only have a buffer of one strip.

Tomorrow’s, incidentally, is the first Dead Ends comic I ever did. I changed the schedule in order to make a bonfire one to show people that Dead Ends is in real time (unlike strips such as Questionable Content, which shows the same day’s activities over a couple of weeks) and corresponded to the time of year (hence the winter dress etc), so tomorrow’s got relegated. And as I’d thought of the storyline for next week (which needed two strips) I felt I’d put it in tomorrow so as the two strips can go into one week as opposed to over two. PHEW. Does any of that make sense? I’m not sure it does.

Work today has been tiresome. As in, I am very tired. I stayed up til half one yesterday watching Batman Begins. It was good, but not half as good as people say it is. And they say it is brilliant. I still need to hit the library. I may or may not do this. Time will tell, I guess.

posted by Cos Ryan @ 7:18 PM