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Ebb and Flow

I've been coursing through this particular section of my life without any plan or direction. This is how I claim to live all of my life; if there is no goal to achieve, then there will be no disappointment when one does not achieve it. But there's a difference. With my current state of being, there really has been no overriding plan. I usually have one thing I want to do of a week, day, hour, but how I go about it is not something I worry about - as long as it gets done. I have ignored this impulse, and to be honest with you, it's not been all that bad. Just a little... desolate.

The comic stopped after the 5th of May. I have done precisely dick all to rectify this absence, and I feel shitty about it. The problem I have is that it's a comic supposedly in real time, which means that in the comic's universe, one month has passed. This should give me some freedom, in that I can make up things that I cannot physically draw to explain the absence - I've not documented for a month because Danchester was nuked or something. I don't know. It won't be anything quite so silly. What I will say, as a final note on the comic, is that you'll get the first page I've done in a month on Monday. Given my current state of mind, God only knows how it'll turn out.

Yeah, so I'm still "depressed." And yes, it's still money, more or less. I've got an electric bill, mobile bill, BT bill and various other bits and pieces totalling £450 more than I have. That should be fun. The downside of the house bills all being in one's name is that one is the one who will get put in the proverbial when one cannot pay. My own fault, to be sure. Bank charges aren't helping anything either.

And I came on the laptop in order to write some Dead Ends scripts. Didn't happen. I'm also kind of writing a novel. I've done one A4 page. I feel awesome.

Right. Well. Back to it.

posted by Cos Ryan @ 4:18 PM